Lost in My World
I got nobody, not even myself.
Being careless,
beginning to care less for my health.
I can cry out for help,
but this glass box I’m locked in
is sound proof.
I can have all I desire
doesn’t sound true.
As the sun rises,
my world plummets.
Can’t go out in public.
Society, I can’t stomach.
Trusting my gut or instinct never matters,
life stinks, it cracks then shatters.
Just a man losing worth,
losing every chance,
lost in my world,
where I can’t advance.
I’ve gone unnoticed,
been misguided.
Seems like my virtues are vices
Cause nothing suffices.
Never knowing where to go.
Slowly losing hope.
Coping with the fact I’ll die tired and alone.
But I won’t accept this fate.
As I try to change my life and make it elevate,
I’m met with dirt and spit slapped across my face.
I sit alone, face the window
contemplate if I should make
my heartbeat hit zero.
Funny how birth is viewed a miracle
and ever since I’m thought of so minimal.
We’re given this life for us to make.
As everyone’s molds and shapes,
mine likes to fold and break.
My shoulders shatter from the weight
of my world.
It holds so much,
but it lacks in worth.
No love comes from above,
was pushed then shoved.
Enough is never enough
from the man who put air in my lungs.
Did you give me this mind just to lose it?
Did you give me these eyes just to cry through them?
Did you give me this life to end up a lost cause?
From birth I’ve had these scars.
I was hopeless from the start.
A piece of shit, who was never meant to go far.
But I’m here to prove me wrong.
Me being lost is me being guided.
Clueless in my steps but still trying.
Walk now through darkness for a future brightened.
Even in death, I’ll be enlightened.
This is my world,
nobody else’s.
These are my choices,
no one else’s.
I’ll either be the words of the voiceless or I’ll be helpless.
Even when I’m selfish, I’m selfless.
Lose yourself in your world,
choose your worth in your world.
This shit is yours, forget every other voice you heard.
Listen to yours,
build your own doors
and open them.
Who says you can’t abuse every chance you get?
The devil wants to dance, just forget the steps.
Life ain’t easy, why should death be?
The only one to decide when my last breath leaves, is me.
When I do, I’ll just fade out.
This lost soul on this long road
with no lane found,
letting the game of life, just play out.
I pray now,
but no prayer for me can save now.
A thousand times you can forgive and forget.
God forgives you, I’m the one He forgets.
And He has no regrets.
How do I know?
Because shit happens, again and again.
There’s no key to life,
no way to define it.
Me being lost
is how I like it.
Through the bullshit,
I walk tall, defiant.
Can’t tell the secrets,
gotta keep quiet.
The answers you seek,
end up lost and you will find them.
